I am living with an illness. Right now I am not referring to “Rheumatoid Arthritis” but rather something that is way more insidious and pervasive. This illness does not only invade my joints, but impacts every cell of my being.
My illness is a broken heart.
I am painfully aware of the intensification of the demise of our planet as we know it, the increase of glacial ice sheets melting, out-of-control wildfires, droughts, hurricanes, tornadoes and tsunamis, fossil fuel and palm oil corporations raping our earth, climate refugees, and the pervasive suffering and extinction of so many species, and that our oceans are predicted to be lifeless in the next thirty years.
I am heart sickened. Beyond words.
I read an article about the Permian extinction. This is what it said: “Two hundred and fifty-two million years ago, the article said, a series of volcanic eruptions spewed plumes of carbon into the atmosphere, turning the world into a hothouse in a geologic blink of an eye. In response, 96 percent of animals on earth went extinct. Insects were wiped out completely. It took the earth ten million years to recover.” And then it said what needed to be said: “Now, for the first time in hundreds of millions of years, we are seeing a trajectory toward Permian levels of carbon in the atmosphere.”
We are in a emergency state. Yet most people around me are talking about the usual ~ their plans for the holidays and the new year goals, travel plans, work issues, their children’s activities, on and on. The pervasiveness of denial in our society is so scary to me.
Yet, we can’t really avoid the fact that our earth is becoming less and less inhabitable. You don’t really catch the illness by being more aware. Although heart ache inevitably intensifies with awareness of how the survivors of the hurricanes in the Bahamas or Puerto Rico or the California or Australian fires are all struggling with loss, anxiety and depression.
Or at how the Amazon forest is burning up by human-made fires supported by the Brazilian government or how the ice caps are melting and sea levels are drowning out islands and there are massive efforts to relocate the people, leaving behind the wildlife to perish. Or you might watch video coverage of endangered animals who are fighting for their lives as their habitats disappear from human encroachment and climate crisis. The reality of their suffering is so heartbreaking.
I think about the movie Titanic, which demonstrated how people responded to their anticipated end of their lives as the ship was sinking after striking an iceberg. Some people panicked, some people were still making effort to stop the catastrophe, some people held one another, some people sang songs to their children.
In many ways, I feel like we are on the Titanic, but most of the passengers of earth refuse to know that we are sinking — unless, of course, the storms or fires are taking your homes. I believe there are ways to slow down the sinking but only if we all wake up to the fact that the boat is going down.
As I was just working out, I caught a caption on T.V. stating Michael Moore:It’s possible the Trump will win again. He was addressing how people often vote according to their wallets. This pierced me with terror and disgust. Terror because Michael Moore predicted Trump’s victory last election and he was right. And horror because how could us humans be so stupid to care more about money than survival.
It is shown that the scientific facts do not wake people up. We seem to hear the facts about climate crisis and then we just go on with our lives as if its not true. We seem to be missing the “mirror neurons” that allow for empathy and connectivity and the reality of our interconnectivity, our oneness, our one earth, our one destiny.
Humans appear to be self-absorbed. But perhaps it is our fear that we can not bear the broken heart.
We embark on 2020.
May we be courageous enough to have 2020 Vision.
Willingness to see. Willingness to care. Willingness to stay awake. Willingness to believe our choices count. Willingness to know we are in an emergency state. Willingness to fight for our lives — all of our lives.
Our votes matter. Our leadership matters. People in leadership are either going to help slow down or speed up this 6th extinction time.
The Trump administration is like a super heavy foot on the gas pedal that speeds up climate crisis. Every choice it makes shows us that they do not care that we are sinking. I believe impeachment should happen if an administration is jeopardizing our survival.
We can not afford to vote by how the economy appears. We need to vote for our survival!
If you dare to truly pay attention, I admit, you too will be ill with a broken heart. But aren’t you anyway?
But if we don’t dare to bare the unbearable, we might fall into the trance Michael Moore is warning about.
2020 vision. Please be willing to see what is truly happening on our earth. Please be willing to be ill with me and be heart-sickened.
We must be in this together and we must do what we can do. 2020 Vision.